so after a lot of talk and some forward steps….Chris and I have decided that things aren’t over.
He said that the comment he made was because I have said the same of him. Now mind you I have…in a way. Once a long time ago, he asked me a very hard question….he asked why it is that I have so many convictions, ideas, and insights from Papa…and why I don’t put action to them. My answer was very simple…”because I can’t live fully for God when you’re not doing the same”.
I know many people would say “what a cop out”, sure, you can see it that way. The fact of the matter for me is I have always seen a lot in the spirit. This is not to say I am all this or all that…it has just been life for me. I know I am a sinner, I know I screw up royally on a daily basis..but I also know what I see…and I know it is from God.
In this, I have the understanding that there are things that I am called to do…chosen to do even. Those particular things are not that which the enemy wants to see come to pass. he will, and has done all that he can to stop or even pospone the process. When I got married, I chose to place myself under the protection or “head” so to speak of my husband…if he is not where the Lord needs/wants him to be…I am basically unprotected…my child is basically unprotected. Many people might not agree with this “theory”, however, Papa has used a friend of mine to show me this basic principal over and over again. When she was married to an ungodly man, any time she stepped out in faith to do Papa’s works…her family…her children were attacked. Sickness came, finances left…it was horrible to watch. But it was in direct relation to her walk with Christ VS her husbands walk. She had no covering! Of course Papa never left her…He was always by her side as with her kiddos. But there WAS something very important missing…an enormous factor that could have made ministry a tad bit easier. Her HUSBAND! Had he been the head under Christ that he was meant to be, Had he been the praying man that he IS still called to be (and I fully believe will be) life for this family would be very different.
I refuse to do this with out him, while still with him. I will not put my child or myself through that. I admire my friend for having the courage to do what she did (ministry wise) but I have learned a lot from her as well. So with that said…there are things that I WILL NOT do without my husbands support and protection. He was placed as the head for a reason and until we are united in the battle zone…I will stand by and pray.
There is something about to change….drastically change…not only in my life.
Be prepared.
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