if you know me, you know what an important number this has been for me..it is as a kiss from God. A direction, a word, a choice.
if you know me, you know that my heart is to minister to the poor..to street kids as well as adults. To LOVE them as HE has loved me when the rest of the world shuns them.
today I am on facebook and a friend of mine from TBI posts a video to a Nickelback song…
the lyrics are AMAZING!!
Anywho…this friend posts a portion of the lyrics…
“Would you donate every dime you have?
And would you call old friends you never see..
Reminisce memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one your dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above,
That you’ll finally fall in love?
If today was your last day”
Then goes on to talk about Luke 12 and how Jesus is telling his disciples not to worry about anything cause basically God’s got their back. One thing Jesus did say (yes it is a command, nowhere in this portion of scripture does He say..wait on God, or if you feel like you should..or maybe do it..he says clear as day. Oh and this isn’t the portion of scripture where He is speaking directly to the rich man), “sell all you have and give alms” (give to the poor). This is something that I have been really really dealing with for the last 2 or 3 years. Today revelation hit me like a ton of bricks, earlier today I asked God for forgiveness, for Him to break me and ruin me for all else but HIM. Then I log on to blueletterbible.org to read this chapter of scripture. And I see something I have never seen before!!
Sell that ye have, and give alms; provide yourselves bags which wax not old, a treasure in the heavens that faileth not, where no thief approacheth, neither moth corrupteth.
I see the address of said passage and as I glanced over it I read Luke 3:33 instead of 12:33. Of course this catches my attention cause, hey I though I was on chapter 12. I look back and realize I am on chapter twelve…wait..what? Huh? then that still small voice says loud and clear…what is 1+2…3
So I guess I am not that far out on left field, as some would have me believe…and I will probably start having some yard sales here soon..♥ Papa, I love you! Thank you for your daily mercy and grace and for quick clear direction. I LOVE You!
On mothers day I asked Chris (jokingly) if I could have a puppy. He of course said NO! That afternoon he is outside grilling and calls me to step out. What do my eyes behold…a puppy. Not for me of course, just a stray that came to the smell of food cooking. I fell in love instantly. She was covered in fleas and STARVING for food and attention. I fed her, played with her and then stepped in (I didn’t want to get too attached after all). She fell asleep on the doorstep, so I asked Chris to run to the store to get some puppy grub. By the time he came back she was gone. I told Chris that if she came back I wanted to keep her, he said “I’ll think about it”. A few days go by and nothing, I kept an ever watchful eye out…but still NOTHING! I had pretty much given up, when I hear some commotion from Chris and Olga (MIL) outside. I step out and see her!!
I talked it over with the FIL and he agreed that although her owners probably lived on the street, she has no collar, no tags, is covered in fleas, starving and is technically a stray. I told him and Chris that if I was not allowed to keep her I wanted to at least take her to the animal shelter. They would clean her up and get her adopted (she is SUPER cute). In the end it was decided that I could keep her but if someone came knockin on the door looking for her I would give her back. So far nothing! If she ever left home I would be going door to door, posting fliers, making phone calls…basically doing everything in my power to get her back. NOTHING…so I assume I was right in thinking she was completely neglected or she just roamed here from some other area. None the less I have an amazing new pups! It took 3 baths and a lot of combing to get the fleas off her.
But she is clean now and fully loved!! Her name is Patchouli..I know this goes against our usual Japanese names but oddly enough it is the only thing she would respond to..lol.
We took her to the vet today to make sure that she didn’t have worms or anything else and she is clean of all parasites!! She got her vaccs and probably her first puppy check up! Here she is at the Vet…sorry it is just a crappy blackberry photo!
sorry about the crappy shots…lighting is horrid in the house!! lol. If you take a close look at todays photo you will see that the dreadies on the left side of my head (your right *wink*) are nice and neat compared to the ones on the right (your left *heheh*). The reason for this is pretty simple. I took a crochet hook and attacked the hair on the left with it. It is amazing how tight and pretty it left my babies!
They have been washed twice and put through an ACV rinse once, I ♥ them!!
Check out the blog as well, no new posts but hey it looks SAWEET!!!
On a more personal note:
Siah was really sick Saturday and I have been pretty horrid all day today. UGH! We are looking for a new place to live, still undecided about New Orleans…well Chris is undecided and that is what really matters right!!?? So the hunt is on for a house or an apartment here in the Valley, if you know of anything please pass along the knowledge!
I am still wondering how to get Patti back for her little piggybank joke. Maybe I just won’t charge her for anything EVER again!! $100 in $1.00 bills…Yeah that was fun!! No really I had a blast trying to pull all of that out (couldn’t stop laughing), but payback is still a…! In Red’s words “bwahahahahahaha” lol. Be afraid little Red…be very afraid!! Maybe I’ll get Monroe to TP the house…how long has it been since she has had a good TPing!? Saran-wrap the car doors shut…hmm..nope not good enough. Well I have time…and time is all I need. bwahahahahaha…
Chris is back in the swing of the video game…ugh. I want a life, a real one with people that I can really get along with. Not those who pretend to be your friend but honestly feel as if they are better or have it all together, all the while thinking that I am ridiculous for not liking Sponge Bob. UGH! Sponge Bob *shudder* I mean do I really have to have a reason for hating Sponge Bob. I think the fact that he is annoying as hell is good enough.
I miss Isaac, Eva and the one whom I cannot mention or all the Earth will shatter….
*sigh*
I still can’t listen to Bips’ music, it sucks cause that was my sanity for a while. My comfort. Now it is just….just painful. Mickey’s stupid PD was MIA so the judged ordered a continuance for the 1st of May. I just want him to be made someone elses bride for a few years then really find salvation. He needs it. I know that Bips loved him and being made perfect by glory loves him even more now. I know she wants him to find Salvation and not burn for eternity. Papa wants that. So I want that as well. Although I do want him to suffer on this earth for a while..I mean really suffer, for what he did. I hate myself for wanting that…but when your friend is raped, kidnapped, stabbed over 100 times and for the most part mutilated…what else am I supposed to feel.
sorry for the depressing rant….’tis just where I am at this second in life….
I found out this weekend that a good friend of mine from bible school was murdered last week senselessly. She was stabbed to death by her fiance a few weeks before she was to release her first CD.
Bipsy truly was one of a kind. Out of all the folks I knew from TBI she was the one whom I knew would succeed. Not because she was favored of God or tithed or did the prosperity message junk…but just because she truly loved Him, her music alone is a testament to that. I was blessed by her immensely last month when she allowed me the rights to one of her songs for my photography website. I hope that she knows how grateful I am to her for that.
I had a hard time dealing with this last night…I couldn’t stop crying. Why I asked, why did He allow this to happen she was 27 happy, faithful, in love, and was just about to live her dream (the CD). His answer to me was from Isaiah..many wonder why righteous and devout men are taken before their time, they often fail to realize that it is to spare them from further evil. I started really thinking about that and realized that if this man who claimed to love her could take her life…what would a life married to him have been like?
Papa, I know that Your thoughts are higher than ours, but please help me understand all of this.
Bipsy, I love you and along with the rest of those whose lives you have touched will miss you deeply. Give Moses a giant hug for me hon!
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a portion of the lyrics from her song beautiful:
You stand before me now
and i’m afraid to touch You
can you tell me how
You are so beautiful?
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Bips, He stands before you now…give Him a huge hug from me!
I love you my Armenian friend.
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If you want to check out more of her gift visit her myspace
To our most bitter opponents we say: throw us in jail and we will still love you. Bomb our houses and threaten our children and we will still love you. Beat us and leave us half dead, and we will still love you. But be ye assured that we will wear you down by our capacity to suffer. One day we shall so appeal to your heart and conscience that we shall win you in the process, and our victory will be a double victory.
